22nd dec:

went Kenny rogers for dinner with some of the JC ppl! yummy yummy! and fatty fatty...!

with brenda

with tong

with xinni and tong tong. (at xinni's house)

muffins there are one of the best!! i went these cux i missed the muffins! =x but their ribs were superb also! haha

tong's mummy made tang yuan! wee weeeeee!

ok.. since i don't know how to flip the photos around.. just bear with this. haha yixian at her chalet! with her fav tortoise. haha

with yiwen + my messy hair

next: with lap kuan during cheryl's bday celebration

at the museum with my research mates! (our giant ipod as lap kuan calls it! haha)

ok..the snowman candle! cafe catel didn;t have normal candles but only this snowman christmas candle... that made cheryl's cake quite special. hahha

dada! that's all for now!

christmas is a good time to get fat =( diet hindering season! haha

on a more serious note:

results came out, i can now grad with at least a bach with merit. guess that's good enough! but the impending graduations means that i have to give serious consideration to what i want to work as. and just a stray thought... if i could go into something else, would i be dreading graduation so much? and something i learnt in a span of a few hours. dreams can go as high and as tall as you want. but forgetting a dosage of reality equates to one step further into the graveyard. going beyond your own means and stretching it beyond your own limits doesn't constitute responsible behavior because when you can't pick up the pieces someone has to do it for you. and to hell with all that it's my own business and i can deal with it. because when the glass all shatters onto the ground, people walking near get splinters and cuts which ropes them into the picking up after you process. And the group of genuinely concerned people cannot bear to just stand aside even thou they might not be pricked and splintered.

i don't know what to feel. pissed off, angry, disappointed or what?

I just felt that that was a very stupid decision or rather a decision that you wouldn't have made. a step that you wouldn't have miscalculated so badly.

the next part's on me, and i hate the fact that there is not much progress going on in changing those mistakes.

tired, very tired.

ps. 不需要我的人，我不会出现在你面前

ps. to my EX-christian counter-parts out there:

i really appreciate the talks and attempts to convince me to the 'bright' path. but i would appreciate me more if i didn't have to feel so pressed about things. i am not anti-christianity or anything. I respect your choices, but it's not something I want to think about now. I have other stuff on my plate now that i think i would want to direct my energies towards